normano04: I swear to you I was doing homework
normano04: and now I've finished
doesnt type well: yea..
doesnt type well: your done cause im here
normano04: no I'm done cuz I'm done

haha that made me laugh.

Its Tuesday and it didn't rain, but thats because it was really cold, and if it had been precipitating it would have been snow.

That is all for now, pretty boring stuff.

Woohoo I was having withdrawals

My weekend was quite lovely...no classes tomorrow, thats always nice. :)

I stayed up till 4am Friday, er Saturday morning, then went shopping a few hours later with Nicole, stayed up till 3am, then slept until about 11, somehow I managed to sleep through my alarm, could be the fact that I was awakened by phone calls. I cannot stress how much I detest that! So the point of that story was how tired I am now

I have to go to the bookstore tomorrow I hope they're open...

I should have done homework but I'm a bad girl!

sometimes I wonder what the point of talking is, if no one listens?


Just a random thought for the day. Its freezing outside and I don't want to go to class.

It was really nice today! It was like 60 degrees ouside, and for a January day in Indiana that is VERY strange. So I enjoyed the lovely day. I had lunch with Christel, and then I had class. Then I had dinner with Amanda and that was good. I also got my precious Nike shox today. That was pretty fast. And if you ever have the money and desire to get nice athletic shoes, buy shox. They are amazing!

It's Tuesday. On Tuesdays and Thursdays in Muncie it ALWAYS rains. So you can deduct that it is
a)sunny
b)snowing
c)raining
d)very windy and cloudy


If you said c you are right.And yeah, I do have to walk some distance today. Boy I LOVE being wet and cold and shivering.

I'm back at school now. I'm pretty happy to be back, don't get me wrong I like my house. But close quarters for too long is just---too much!So now I'm back here, where I can do what I want, when I want. So far today I went with Amanda to find my two classes I have today, ate lunch, and bought my books. I have a pretty big walk to make in 10 minutes, so I'll have to book it! This semester I'm taking Astronomy, Math, Criminal Justice, Sociology, and English/Composition. So we'll see if I can achieve my goal, I'll have to work pretty hard.

I'm watching Perfect Proposal, and it looks like it will be really cute!

I had a dream, it was a nice dream, but weird. I was sitting here at my computer and all of the sudden I get an instant message saying "beautiful" and it was from one of my guy friends whom I formerly had a crush on. He for some reason saw me sleeping and said I was like an angel and he almost fell in love with me. LOL it was so random. I was like, ok thats nice to hear, but it isn't like it made anything different. Still friends, which I'm glad for, he's a nice guy.

Enough with the random dream, I just felt like sharing that since I rarely have nice dreams, and when I do I never remember them.

Today I got to be alone all day, cuz Jason slept till like 1, and only got up cuz the phone rang, lazy butt. Tomorrow I'll really be alone, Jason goes back to school. :D

I'm pretty ready to go back to Ball State. I'll enjoy this week more cuz I'll be ALONE because lets face it two weeks with everyone is a bit much to handle. Especially with Jason's little fiasco, and the common belief that I'm partially responsible for it. Which makes me beyond angry because he's 16. Stupid as he is, he made the choice, not me. I realize he's the baby, but he gets away with far too much. Since I've been home, he missed curfew about 3 times in a row, and not just by like a minute, by twenty to half an hour. He hasn't gotten real punishment either. I mean he couldn't go out new years eve, and he threw the biggest fit. He was acting like such a baby. Cry me a fricken river I've NEVER gone out for New Years Eve. He thinks he deserves to go out every time he asks, well why should he? I didn't get to, and I was the good one. He thinks he's the coolest thing since sliced bread, and he needs knocked down a peg or two.

Ok rant done, I'm out!

So um, the year is almost over. It has been a year of both good and bad. I would say the good, mainly the past.....well since August 23, far outweighs the bad. I've nearly forgotten all of the bad stuff that honestly I don't care about now.

First half of the year was pretty crummy because I was ready to get out of school. I was sick of things, and the political way in which they worked. I was iritated that I felt the need to be fake and pretend to like people I didn't. I was sick of feeling like my parents hated me, and I felt worthless, and I felt like a failure. The highlights were South Carolina(one of the best weeks of my life!) and Texas(trip kinda sucked but it was still fun)

Summer was the transition. I spent lots of time with the people I wanted to maintain bonds with. I was scared and nervous about leaving this comfort zone, I was scared of failing. Now I know there was nothing to fear. Highlights- going to the drive in a few times, hanging with Nicole and Kelly quite a bit.

Fall I started Ball State, nervous, not knowing what to expect. I was surprised that it wasn't as hard as I anticipated and therefore slacked a little bit. I was finally able to sever some ties to my past. With some help from people who care about me, and what is in my best interest(for those people I can't express my gratitude enough- I think you know who you are) I was able to focus on strengthening bonds with people I'd like to keep in my life. And lets not forget that I discovered that I am the luckiest girl in the world.

I would like to just say thanks to people who stuck by my side,and dealt with me because I love you all. This has been one of the best years(if not THE best) of my life. I'm just so happy, thanks in large part to one special person.

So this is my farewell to 2004, farewell to things I've been holding onto for too long. And I welcome 2005 hoping it brings much more of the happiness I've had for the past few months.

I was sick over Thanksgiving break. Therefore, I think I shouldn't be sick now. Which I am. Yesterday my throat just started hurting randomly, which is something like Nicole had, but I can't blame it on her, since I haven't seen her in over a week. But anyways I woke up today and felt sore, my whole body ached.I just layed in bed for hours because I didn't want to face the day. But eventually I rolled out of bed, and layed on the couch for most of the day.

Watched a lot of TLC. Perfect Proposal was excellent today, and A Wedding Story was quite good also. Then I watched both episodes of A Baby Story. First one made me think "Wow, I can not handle having more than one kid." This couple had their third child, and the oldest was only 3 1/2. So it isn't like the kids could help the lady with her new baby, because they are still babies. Second one made me think "Wow, some people do things different!" This one lady had her kid in a tub, which I know happens, but this lady was just all around weird.

I watched a lot of other tv too, but nothing worth mentioning. I am just feeling so blah. It hurts to move. I hate this. :(

Good news is, I'm planning a little thing for New Years Eve. So I'm excited about that

hope everyone had a good one! And now for a small(well kinda big) rant. I will say you may not agree and that is ok, I just wanted to get it out.

( what is beauty? )

Yeah so my internet connection is pretty sucky. I think the snow and cold wind has had an affect on it. I can use my messengers(whew, what would I do without them?)I can download music. And I can surf the net for about 5 minutes at a time, every few hours. So my computer and I have been on some long breaks the past few days.

I have had some hilarious conversations with my friends though. Tonight I've sitting on my bed laughing like an idiot. Today I fell down. I was standing on some totes and the tilted, and I fell. As I was falling I was thinking a) this is gonna hurt and b)this is gonna make a mess. So once I hit the ground I layed there for a few minutes. Then I just started laughing. I hurt my shoulder and my knee. Kelly told me her knee hurts too. We are connected, I swear.

Speaking of connections... there was something at school today. The 2004 grads could go in to school and talk with this years seniors and teachers. Megan Nicole and I all showed up in pink shirts. We had a laugh and everyone asked if we planned it. We didn't, so it was really odd. They were going to serve us chicken nuggets, we said no way, and went to Arni's. That was a good time.

Whats good about college is you can devote your time to who you want to keep in your life. No more pretending. I love it.

Speaking of loving things...I got a teddy bear and I love it too :)

Hopefully my internet gets better, I have some entry ideas that I'm dying to share(haha like you care)


*sing me something soft, sad and delicate, or loud and out of key. Sing me anything......*

I took my 4th final today. I think it went ok, yeah there were a few that I didn't know, but then there were more that I was like "I KNOW THIS!" so I don't think I failed. Maybe B-C or so, which isn't stellar but that class was hard. I'm getting a B in Sociology. I think a B maybe an A in French. Hopefully I can kick on my Criminal Justice test and get a B but I doubt that. I'll probably get a C+

My first semester=not stellar, but decent. No failures, thats a good thing.

I'm gonna go shopping. I am almost done. I still have to get something for Nicole, but it isn't out yet, so that has to wait a few days. I also have to get something for my little cousin Colin. I may go to Toys R Us on my way out of town tomorrow. Or maybe today. who knows.

I've been twice in the past two days. I bought 2 Ball State shirts. Or maybe they were free.... Who knows, three were purchased, 4 were free. Good deal, huh?

I took a final today, dunno how well I did. I don't care really. I'll get a decent grade.

I am so excited! Its the first year I've bought people nice gifts. Or semi-nice gifts. And I know a lot of what I'm getting which is also exciting. Sure surprises are nice, but when you pick something out it is something to look forward to. Example-I cannot wait to get all of my Aeropostale clothes. There is a small downfall to that though. I have too many clothes :X well I take that back. I don't have the proper space to accomodate my clothing capacity. So I have a solution that I'd like to try to use, of course that requires buying something but maybe I can get mom and dad to fund it, it isnt a big expense.

My friend Nicole got me addicted to photoshop. Uh oh! Well its a good thing in a way. I'll have something to do during finals week downtime.

Finals week, arg! I just want to be done, and be at home for a few weeks.

I'm all alone, I was going to go to late night, but I got a headache, plus I wasn't ready in time. oops

I feel so weak lately. Physically and emotionally. I dunno, I don't like it. I don't like crying but sometimes I can't help myself. Chalice's theory is that I've always been emo and I'm just now letting it out. I disagree, but whatever.

Also physically...I'm pretty sure something is wrong with me. I'm always tired and I sleep plenty. I get headaches every day at about 6:30pm, and right now I'm feeling feverish or something. I'm hot and cold at the same time. This sucks and I hate it.